a city that never dies .

Friday, June 15, 2007

neuroticism

A neurotic is someone who knows something is wrong with her but can't really do anything about it. No matter how many time people say "it's all in the head," it doesn't really matter. In fact it IS the problem. You feel so helpless. its in your head and you can't do anything about it. You want to, but you just can't. But that's okay, we're generally harmless.

It's just that, there are times that thinking too much makes you do a lot of crazy things. Crazy in the context of being a fool and not someone who's in it for the white-cushioned room.

I find people annoying. And I know the feeling is mutual. A lot of people don't like me. It's so easy to sense that someone isn't sincere when talking to you. All you have to do is look them in the eye. It works, really. And then there's the tone of the voice. Dismissive. Same goes for body language. You know when you're not wanted. You should. I just wish people would be more direct to the point about it. It would really hurt less.

this is the city that never dies
because it is full of peace.

Thursday, June 07, 2007

the neurotic me

i really should change the title of this blog to "rantings of a teenage neurotic"...

i'm not a psychopath...
for starters, i dont have fantasies that go way overboard the realm of fantasy. i'm not like this girl my abpsych talked about in class...the schizo who though...*ahem* believed...that she was pregnant with Piolo Pascual's child...
i talk to myself sometimes but i don't argue with the "other me", so to speak...
i'm not psychotic...

although i think i'm neurotic...
someone who's neurotic knows there's a problem with themselves but can't do anything about it...
to all the neurotics out there...i feel you...

on a different yet related note...
imagine that you have a boyfriend...and you've been planning to go out on a date for 2 weeks now...
then a few days before the said date...
he cancels...because he has an outing with his friends...
now, it would have been totally understandable had these friends not been his neighbors...
the stupid part is that he claims that the two of you can go out on a date anytime...
on the other hand, he and his friends rarely go on outings like this...
but they're neighbors...
and you're his girlfriend...shouldn't there be at least some tinge of consideration???
oh, and the neurotic part comes in when you begin to think that his so-called friends are really bent on breaking you up because they don't like you and for their posse to be perfect, he has to be with someone they like...
in other words...NOT YOU.

this is all "hypothetical" by the way...

to anyone who might read this and gets offended...
im sorry...this is one of my depressive phases...
just comment...

this is the city that never dies
because it is full of peace.

Monday, October 30, 2006

Rev-d Up!^-^

Yay!..kakatapos lang ng RYC this morning!..
whoo!!!
kapagod and sobrang...basta...

ang saya!...

syenpre kasi panalo Cavite cheerdance!!!(IYC!!!) ^-^
tapos pati volleyball champion...hehe...

pero... ang pinaka masaya sa lahat ay yung praise fest...

ewan... iba yung feeling...

sa tagal ko sa YFC, ngaun lang ako natuto mag raiese ng hand in praise of God!!!...

WAaAahH!!!.... ang saya talaga!...

kahit badtrip ung ulan...
kahit badtrip ung cr...
kahit badtrip ung sumpong ni jr =p...
Kahit badtrip ung ibang bagay...

masaya parin...

with the realization na kahit kelan...

Hindi Ako Iniwan Ni GOD..

at alam kong kahit kelan...

HINDING-HINDI nya ako IIWAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!^-^

I LOVE YOU LORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeah!^-^..

hehe..

grabe tlaga...

ilang months nalang...Aoril na...

malapit na ang conquer all..

our mission has started...reved-up na!^-^

to bring the youth closer to GOD...

malapit na...

soon the whole Philippines will be conquered...

ang sarap isipin na part ako nung mission na yun...

^-^

haAay...^-^

Basta...

yun lang muna..

ovewhelming talaga..^-^

hehe..

2 nga pala shirt ko...yay!^-^

ay wait,,,pahabol...

1st RYC ko ever...sobrang saya!^-^
kahit wala akong tulog...
ays lang...
masarap kausap si God...
lalong masarap siyang kantahan...

basta...

truly..

Our GOD is an Awesome GOD!!!!!!!!.......................

this is the city that never dies
because it is full of peace.

Monday, September 11, 2006

heto nanaman

haay..back to school...new term..new subjects...but the horror they bring remains the same...
haaaaayyy...katamad pumasok sa skul....
waAah...first time ever to experience late adjustment (or simply adjustment for that matter)...
heh...ka leche... haba ng pila...ten years bagi matapos...
bad trip mga SINGIt... ansarap kurotin sa singin..XP
haYy...
sa yfc namna... kamusta naman ang cheerdance...
goot lak...
ala nipapatunguhan...
haYy..................

hehe...
naaalala ko ang MOS...
hehe...
ako si number three...
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
whatever.
masaya.....

hindi lang masaya ang...........
oops...
bka may makabasa na ndi pa nagm-MOS...
spoiler!...

ahehe,,,
change topic.....

pagusapan natin ang aking kagandahan....
=)

haha...
maganda ako maganda ako......
hehe...
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..............

ay ewan,,,
even that sounds boring,.....

=)

whatever

this is the city that never dies
because it is full of peace.

Sunday, July 30, 2006

status: bored to the brink of insanity

wAah...
for someone who has so much to do...
i'm as bored as whatever....
in addition to that..
my head hurts...
I'm at the comp shop..
i so wish we have an internet at home but judging by how slow (read: 10 minutes before it opens) our pc is...it might break down if we connect to the net...
waaah....
damn expsyla replication expt.
who ever said psyc is an easy course should be fed to the sharks....
*sigh*....

the online enrollment last friday was torture.
the system kept crashing...
waaah...
it took us a 2 hours before we could enroll...
what's more, i had to deviate from the flowchart. i didn' get in the class i was supposed to.
some stupid, evil, people got there first...
kiiiiiil....
i wish them nothing but ill....
nah...
that's too harsh...2 of my blockmates got in...lucky them.
they're not included in storm of curse words i hurl at the people who got in...
^-^
peace to you guys..
gud luk...
kick their b***s for us, will you?...

whatever...
even blogging is boring...

this is the city that never dies
because it is full of peace.